Bottom of the Night

It is 8:35 pm currently on this fine Sunday

I am feeling

rather

happy?

maybe mellow

I am feeling a bit relaxed 

as alllllllllllllways 

I feel like I need to play some violin.

I've been better.

The stresses of the AP and IB exams are getting to me

I feel like I have bitten off more then I can chew.

Well 

I am editing a video that I did full of social experiments

I think it is pretty funny

Other people might not think so

Can't win them all I guess haha

hope I win some...

Welllllllll

I am kinda excited for the video

My mentor (who probably won't message me back) had a video I really like and it suits me nicely :)

I will post a link along with my video next week.

Until next time fellow internet users

Obadeh Mohiddin 

Week 2: One small step for me, a large step towards happiness :)

Allllllllllllllright. I will be honest with you fellow internet user. I haven't really done all that much to physically alter my mental state of being. However, that sounds like a contradiction anyway so I am not worried. I will however conduct a social experiment next week because we have a long weekend. I AM SO EXCITED. I always watch these social experiments on Youtube such as
-  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VqwGa_h7bU8
- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_RWssDDHjQA
or https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l4ImP0rP-ow
^ All those being great ideas :)
I will get my friend Jimmy to go along and do the camera work.
I don't really know... I feel like just lightening up and laughing more really goes along way. I have been talking more with my sister and I think the brother-sister bond we got going on makes me happy. I really do like being the older brother to so many children. I have my brother Sam (13), Tuka (11), twin brothers Rami and Hadi (9) and then there is me at age 16. As of recent, I have taken apart of my day to spend with my siblings and that is something that I might have been missing before. I feel lighter, more happy, more able to do things and overall it is a step in the right direction. Also! Messing with Mrs. H on the 20 time thread was really funny :D I impersonated her and she didn't even know (I was also sitting right next to her) I feel like if I don't give myself the opportunity to feel sad, then I don't. That's how I wish to end this week's entry. Feel free to leave a comment below if you are so willing :) 

Introduction: Step 1

Welcome to my Blog
I suppose you've come here because you are very interested in what I have to say.
Although I can already tell you it probably won't be of much interest to you.
Sorry to leave you disappointed fellow internet user.

I feel like typing in bullet statements today.
The point of this blog is document the steps I am taking to make myself happier.
This could either be seen as an ambiguous and pointless project or a refreshing and deep psychological journey.
Sometimes I feel like this project may be worthless, but the more I think about it, happiness is a goal we should all strive for.
I mean like what is happiness?
When do we know when we are happy?
Maybe we feel happy when we don't question our own happiness.
It's crazy to think about haha.
I feel like when you take the time to reflect upon your life, you also take time to reflect upon the sadness; and sadness is much a stronger and longer lasting tool than happiness.
Then again I think, perhaps it's just school and all the work I do.
Maybe because I'm constantly working and getting little sleep it makes me grumpy and therefore feel more passive and less passionate about life.
Although a valid theory, hard work and sleep deprivation won't go away later. They'll probably get worse :/.
This is why I want to seek out the steps I can take to become truly happy :) which is a goal that seems simple enough, but thinking of a path to get there won't be.  To obtain and maintain a long term happiness is a life goal of mine, not just one of this project.
For example, last week I went to the orchestra room and played my violin for 40 minutes and I came out feeling more refreshed and calm than when I went in. To slow down life and do things that I enjoy really soothe me and I find it beneficial for my health. 

Violin music is one thing I really like to do.

I like to play basketball in my free time or soccer I suppose. Although my ankles usually don't hold up very well.

I also enjoy a good prank/ conducting a social experiment because I love seeing peoples' reactions to things. 

I wish to record myself conducting a few social experiments and put them on this blog to share the kick I get out of making them.  

Hopefully I will have done something exciting by next week so I can tell y'all about it. 

Till next time